I'd dressed well in my school fitted uniform. My mum who was cleaning the dinning table noticed that I'm ready to go to school
"Joy! " She called and I turned at her sadly
"You look sad , I noticed you were sad when you arrived yesterday too, is anything wrong?" My mum asked
"Yes mum , see me , just take a look at my face , why in the world am I so ugly? Why? Why do I have to? I look so ugly mum? Everyone at school scorns me , no one associates themselves with me just because I've got an ugly face " I lamented painfully
My mum lowered her head then looked into my face
"To me , you are beautiful , I want you to shut your ears to all their sayings , just know that I'm always here for you " my mum encouraged and I nodded and walked out
The pain of being neglected by my classmates is stuck in my heart , I do not like to check myself in the mirror cus I disgust myself
I've gat a very ugly face
I finally arrived at school and entered my class. I sat down gently , after all , I've got no friends to greet , I've got no one to greet
I was getting myself ready for the first lecture when I heard some laughter behind me , I turned and my face dropped in gloom
Williamson and Prosper who bullies me always had come again to have me bullied .
Williamson walked closer to me and shot me a disgusting look
"Guys, she's got such a disgusting face " Williamson announced to the class and the class laughed scornfully
" Hey friends , ya'all know all students in this school are handsome and beautiful or at least, averagely handsome and averagely beautiful but someone is just so , I mean ...so ugly like a demon " Williamson said and the whole class bursted into a mockery laughter
"Guess the ugly ass hole?" He asked the class
"Who else ... Joy of course ...it's joy ...she looks so disgusting ...." Many students said
My ears were filled with bad rumours about me that I feel really disgusting and worthless
The mockery I go through in class everyday adds to my sorrow , why must I be born this ugly ?
Williamson suddenly snatched the pen I was holding and threw it to Prosper his friend
I stood up hurriedly to ask him for my pen but he shot me a look that made me look stupid
"Your pen isn't with me dumb ass, get it from Prosper " Williamson said and I walked to Prosper to ask but before I could get to where he is , he threw the pen back to Williamson
I was going to and fro, from Williamson to Prosper in a quest to get my pen but I wasn't able too
The class keep watching and giggling mockingly at me
I was tired , I stopped and cried .
I turned to my sit hopelessly , it simply means I won't be able to write for today
I do not know why Williamson takes pleasure in punishing me so much. He's being my crush from the very first day at school, I guess he didn't know
I'd always loved him so much but he takes pleasure in bullying me
I wish I can be beautiful too, perhaps , we would have being in a relationship by now but my ugly face will never make anyone want to be friend with me
I watched as Williamson and Prosper walked to their place with my pen in Williamson's hand
I bowed my head pathetically and accepted my terrible fate for the day.
After the first lesson, the students left for the cafeteria.
I don't that if I should just stay in class when my stomach is on fire or I should get myself some thing to eat.
I stood up from my chair and head to the cafeteria, on getting there, I picked up a plate and joined the line.
When the students noticed me , they started murmuring, pointing fingers at me.
You know that feeling of the world been against you?
I just felt like the earth should just swallow me.
Am I the only one ugliness found?
Why can't my ugly face leave me and try somewhere else?
Is it my fault that I'm born ugly?
I looked around the cafeteria and the students were busy making jest of me.
I hurriedly drop the plate and ran out of the cafeteria, why the students burst into laughter.
Is this my own destiny?
To be mock and molested by others?
To be treated like trash?
Why the f**k is my own so different huh?
Nobody wants me in school, nobody wants me at home.
My only friend since I was a kid has been my mother and my elder brother.
I tried ignoring what people are saying, but the more I tried paying a deaf hear, the more my heart became heavy.
The feeling of the one I have always crush on being the head bully and finds pleasure in bullying me sucks, it kills me inside.
The tears that runs down my cheeks anytime I think about my life can form a river.
People now calls me so many kinds of names, in fact nobody calls me Joy again.
They now call me she devil, ugly duckling, crocodile poo , human faeces, trash etcetera.
Tell me , is this world worth living by me anymore?